I still make excuses for not writing posts on this blog. Too tired, can’t think of what to say. It’ll take too long to write, I’ll do it later.
I’ve found though that there is a problem deeper than that. It’s a common feeling that you don’t deserve to be doing whatever you’re trying to do whether it be writing blogs, books, photography, graphic design, music or making hats. It’s a kind of outsider thinking – that because you didn’t go to college or university to learn it, because you’re not a professional then you’re just playing, that you’re not part of the group, you’re not a writer or photographer. It doesn’t matter how many people say that what you do is good the feeling that you shouldn’t be doing it persists, particularly when there are people around who do confirm your beliefs with words like “it’s just a hobby” like your creations can only have value to yourself. You could even end up doing these things at work for free because you don’t feel your skills are worth any financial reward.
It leads you to read the work of published writers and journalists and so on and think I’m not as good as them. There are some professions that require professional training but many that don’t, there are many writers and photographers who are entirely self-taught.
You’ll know, or discover whether you are good at what you’re doing the important thing is to not let the outsider thinking prevent you from learning and trying, or valuing what you create.